I searve a WONDERFUL God!!!

God has been growing, allowing me to be tested, and teaching me a LOT lately. I will tell you the truth, it has been a hard time in my life and if someone had told me back when I first became a follower of Christ that I would go through what I have in the past three months then I would have either laughed in their face or ran screaming in fear. But, God being the wonderful and sovereign being that He is knows that we can only handle a little bit at a time and doesn't let us know it all before it is time to know it.
God has been growing me in my faith. He has brought me continually to a place of surrender of my desires and plans for my life, He has allowed me to go through testing of my faith that is stronger than I ever knew was possible (terrifying at times where my blood actually ran cold through my veins), He has been teaching me what it means to have TRUE faith, teaching me how to see Him for who He really is, and teaching me to see ME how He sees me...a BEAUTIFUL woman that He created to fulfill a purpose that only I can fulfill.
I have seen MANY answers to prayer in my life in the past three months as well. It is wonderful to know that though I have been going through the hardest times of my life, through it all God has been blessing me as well.
Here are just a few of the answers and blessings God has given me:
1. God has allowed me to see His blessings and answers to prayer through the victory of confessing parts of my past to my parents that I felt so ashamed of I had kept them hidden for over six years. I was so scared to tell them that I had to literally pray that God make me move since I was physically unable to do it myself. God is good, and when I finally confessed to my parents things I thought they would be disappointed and hurt over they told me the exact opposite...they love me even MORE for telling them and for allowing God to grow me so much through it.
2. In late April and early May I was very concerned that I might have some VERY serious health problems. I was physically ill at the thought of possibly having to face the problems I was concerned I might have. Through prayer, godly counsel, study in God's word, and logical thought processing I was able to determine that I did not have the problems I thought I might but that instead Satan was attacking me fiercely in this worry. After prayer and peace in the answers God had already provided for me, I decided that I needed to go to the doctor and have some tests run for further confirmation of what I already knew to be true so that Satan would not have a foothold to create doubt in my mind. In the end, PRAISE GOD, the tests further confirmed that I did not have anything wrong with me at all! :) God is good!!!
3. I have been praying for my brother, James (Jay), for a LONG time. My prayers have been that he would come to a place of submission to God and allow God to lead his life, as well as his romantic relationships; that God would place the right people in Jay's life to guide him and speak truth to him in love, and that if God chose it I would be willing to be used to speak these words of truth. I have also been praying that God would strengthen the relationship that Jay and I share since our relationship with each other was not good and hadn't been for many years. God is good and answered every one of these prayers in one fell swoop this past month! My relationship with my brother is entirely different from what it has been in the past, and we are VERY close now; God chose to use me to speak truth and love to my brother and he was receptive to it, and Jay has developed a relationship with Christ that is stronger than I have ever seen him have before...he is now seeking for God to be the center of his life and relationships, and seeking to be a man after God's own heart!
There are many more answers to prayer that God has given me, but these are just a few. I am still walking through the valley of growth and testing, but I know that God is with me through it all and He has blessed me with many wonderful people to guide and love me through it all.
I want to encourage anyone that is going through times of struggle to hold fast to God and seek Him continually through it all. If you are reading this and you do not know God, or feel that you don't know Him as well as you would like to, I would LOVE to talk and pray with you. God wants the BEST for us, and the only people standing in the way of that happeing is OURSELVES.
Thank you to those of you who have been upholding me through this time of growth in my faith and who I am as a daughter of the King. You are more precious to me than I can ever express. I pray many blessings upon you all.
In love,
Diana